Writing about good feelings in a gratitude journal

The way you feel is about what you're doing with your energy. When you feel bad it's not because somebody projected negative energy to you, it's because you're not letting your energy flow. If you feel frightened, it's not because there's a monster in the bushes, it's because you're not letting your energy flow. If you feel tired, it's not because you ate something funny or because you have some sort of physiological difficulty, it is because you're not letting your energy flow.

Abraham-Hicks (I don't have the workshop date)

A really quick way to get the energy flowing is by appreciating. And one way to appreciate is to keep a gratitude journal. Some say to write down 5 things we are grateful for or appreciate every day. I have a journal and I write it in when I feel moved to do so. I feel eager when I do when I want to. I remember all of the things I love to see and do and the people that I love. I'm writing so fast and more and more that I appreciate comes to my mind.

Abraham talks about our knowing energy is flowing when we feel good. Abe says when we desire anything it is because we think we will feel good by having it. So, why not go directly to what we want by learning how to feel good whenever we want to?

I had a most interesting experience a few days ago. My entry in my gratitude journal was a couple of pages about good feelings that I experienced and how much I loved them. It was a really pure experience of allowing good feelings to flow.
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Abraham-Hicks: Be selfish enough to reach for Connection

If we were standing in your physical shoes, that would be our dominant quest: Entertaining Yourself, pleasing Yourself, connecting with Yourself, being Yourself, enjoying Yourself, loving Yourself. Some say, "Well, Abraham you teach selfishness. And we say, yes we do, yes we do, yes we do, because unless you are selfish enough to reach for that connection, you don't have anything to give anyone, anyway. And when you are selfish enough to make that connection — you have an enormous gift that you give everywhere you are.

Abraham-Hicks, 4/21/01

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Correcting my heading to Well-Being

A pilot corrects the heading of an airplane a large percentage of time that they fly from point A to point B. In spite of the need for corrections, the plane lands amazingly accurately and on time (exceptions are when there are other things that delay the flight).

My Inner Being provides that same type of guidance to get me where I want to go. When I don't feel good, I have started tuning in to my Inner Being. I have a feeling of what that Presence is and I take a moment to listen or rest in that feeling. I may ask for something like peace of mind or comfort or guidance. Sometimes I say that I want to feel good. Sometimes I ask my Inner Being what it would do in this situation. When I do that I feel a flowing toward me and see things in a different way.

As I was doing this, I realized one day that feeling good means being in the Now. And worry and resistance is about the future or the past. When I feel well-being, I am totally in the present.

I've also been thinking a lot about control. I noticed that when I felt upset about something, I felt like someone/something was in control and I wasn't. If I felt upset about something at work, they were the source of money instead of the Universe or me being the source. When I feel upset about something in a relationship, it seems to be because I feel like something I want is not in my control -- it's in their control. Some version of..."I want to feel loved and they're not doing what I want so that I feel loved."

Choosing to change my thoughts so that I feel good puts me back in a feeling of being in control. It feels good to know that I'm in charge of how I feel.

And the last part is trust. Abraham tells us time and time again, that when we feel good, what we desire comes to us. So, all the unhappy feelings are about something that I want. This has been the last part for me, to trust that what I am really seeking is to feel good and to trust that when I feel good I am lovingly provided for. I relax and trust God and allow God's good to come to me.

Now that I have had a taste of how good I can feel, when I choose thoughts that don't feel good it has become extremely unpleasant. It's not worth it anymore to think I can't have what I want. It doesn't matter to me. All that is important is to feel good. And how I feel is a choice that, thank God, only I can make.

I have come to the place of choice and I choose well-being. I choose to look for things that feel good. I choose to believe that what Abraham is saying is true. I choose to believe that things will work out and I don't need to manage that process, I can let God handle it.

Just do your best to keep yourself in balance. One of the first things that causes Energy misalignment, is asking or demanding too much of yourself in terms of time and effort. In other words, you just cannot burn the candle at both ends, so that you are physically tired, and then expect yourself to have a cheerful attitude. So, the rule of thumb has to be: "I'm going to be very, very, very happy, and then do everything I have time to do after that."

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 3-6-05

How can you possibly guide your life by the standards that come from outside of you, when there are not two in your world that ask the same thing of you? You have to, once and for all, decide that you're going to orient yourself from your Source perspective. When you make a decision that nothing is more important than that you feel good, your life will begin to become that which you knew it could be when you made the decision to come forth into this physical experience.

Abraham-Hicks,From the workshop recording 10/5/02

In your moving yourself up the Emotional Scale, your business will begin to prosper in new and profound ways! Your business, your relationships, your finances cannot grow beyond your emotional response -- nothing can grow beyond your emotional response. Everything matches your Set-point of emotions on every subject that exists.

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 12/6/03-B

So, the truth is, there's not one path. The truth is, there's not only one right path. The truth is, all paths can be made to be the right path. The truth is, that every individual has a different path. And that different path that every individual is launching incrementally and amending constantly--that true path is known by Source and is guided by Source if you will pay attention to the way you feel.

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 10/13/04

You have been oriented that you must pay a price in order to get somewhere, and in the process, you've come to believe that getting there must be really important, therefore, it must be your purpose. And we say, but if you're not getting to joy, then you've gotten nowhere. Joy is really where you're going.

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 12/13/03

The only thing that makes the difference in the way you feel right now is the thought that you are thinking right now. It doesn't matter how much money you've got; there are joyful people with no money, and there are unhappy people with lots of money. How you feel is about how you are allowing the Source that is You to flow. So when we talk about the Art of Allowing, we're talking about the art of living; about the art of thriving; about the art of clarity. We're talking about the art of being who you really are.

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 7/20/02

You can say things like, "As I look at successful people, and by that I mean rich people, yes, and I mean happy people, and sometimes they're rich and happy. But when I'm talking about the successful ones, what I really mean is the really happy people. People that are really joyful, that want to get up every day, that are eager to get into their day. Almost without exception, they had a pretty rough beginning, which turned them into a powerful rebel initially. And then they found a way to relax into their natural birthright of Well-being.

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 2/2/02

The power of "and"

Here is a technique I use to soothe resistance when I have a desire and an opposing belief. This would be when I have something I desire, but the opposing belief is saying I can't have it or that it will be unpleasant to have it.

For example, say the desire is to have abundance and the opposing belief is that I have to struggle to have abundance. I have to work long hours. I have to prove myself in the job. I have to work my way up the ladder. Whatever...

The "and" statements are whatever bring relief. To do this you would choose the words that specifically address the resistance. You will know them by the feeling of relief. Some examples for Abundance/Struggle would be:

I can have abundance and feel relaxed.
I can work and have fun.
I can be paid well and have work that is easy for me.
I can be very well respected at my job and work 40 hours a week (or whatever).
I can be successful and happy.
I can go home on time and be successful.
I can spend time I desire with my family and be successful.

It's a way to find the unity in what appears to be a conflict in desire and beliefs.

Abraham-Hicks: Managing the joy of creation in steps

....And the joy of creation, the joy of deliberate creation is managing these steps.

In other words, getting clear and allowing it. And getting clear and allowing it. And getting clear.

It's about finding your individual balance.

You know that you would not be happy not defining what you want. You are a born focuser. And some like you who have come to live it and breathe it and teach it, you could not help but get into a place where you are clear about what you want.

That is the law of all of our lives.

In other words, we must focus this energy. We have access to the energy that creates worlds. Focusing it is a hoot!

In other words, it's what we are all wanting to do. But when we summon through the power of our desire, more energy than we can handle - because we've got a vibrational pattern that doesn't let it in - then that very same energy beats up on us pretty good.

And you say, "This sucks." You say, "This is not a fun thing." And we say, all that's happened when you feel that way is that YOU HAVE SUMMONED MORE SPECIFICALLY THAN YOUR BELIEFS OR HABITS OF THOUGHT ARE ALLOWING.

And now you, the individual focuser, are out of balance in your own energy field.

So then we say, you're wanting to do a number of things.
You're wanting to bring your belief up.
You might want to slow your desire down.

In other words, you're wanting to do anything that you can do to get yourself back in alignment...

And then we say,
begin relaxing,
begin meditating more,
begin appreciating more,
begin looking for more positive aspects,
begin trusting yourself more,
begin looking for things that feel good.

Work to bring yourself back into balance...

And here is the key:

As long as you're letting YOUR JOY BE YOUR GUIDING LIGHT, then you can always stay in balance.

Abraham-Hicks, San Francisco, CA 8/24/02
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Abraham-Hicks: Our intention has been to understand the Creative Process

As you have made the decision to be here, to experience life, you have intended to understand, through this physical life process, the Creative Process, that you may deliberately create that which you choose within this physical life experience. It is your dominant intention as you are in physical form at this time.

Abraham-Hicks, 2/12/94 workshop
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Abraham-Hicks: Open the floodgates!

open the floodgates...

It's time for you to start enjoying life. It's time for you to start feeling about you and your life in the way we feel about you and about your life. It's time for you to begin to reap the benefit of what your life experience and its contrast have yielded for you. It's time for you to open the floodgates and let what's piled up right outside your door in vibrational escrow in.

And then next month, we will meet with you again and have a meeting about demanifestation!

Because so many things that you want will begin flowing in such abundance into your experience that you will find yourself wanting to be more and more defining about what you put your attention to.

Abraham-Hicks, San Francisco, 2/11/06
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Abraham-Hicks: All is well and you will never get it done

All is well, and you will never get it done. Life is supposed to be fun. No one is taking score of any kind, and if you will stop taking score so much, you will feel a whole lot better -- and as you feel a whole lot better, more of the things that you want right now will flow to you. You will never be in a place where all of the things that you are wanting will be satisfied right now, or then you could be complete -- and you never can be. This incomplete place that you stand is the best place that you could be. You are right on track, right on schedule. Everything is unfolding perfectly. All is really well. Have fun. Have fun. Have fun!

Abraham-Hicks, 2/20/01 workshop

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Abraham-Hicks: The easiest way to let it in

I have Abraham Quotes as my home page and like the quote for today:

The easiest way to let it in is by talking about what you want and why you want it. What you want and why you want it, is usually the purest form of your vibration.

Abraham-Hicks, from the workshop recording 5/8/01-A

I was idly thinking about something I wanted today and realized my focus was on what was current. And from there I was saying that I wanted something different. I have an Abe video where they say that when you want to go from "here" to "there" you are including what you do not want in your focus, and therefore resisting what you want. So, just picture what you do want and don't be concerned about the rest of it. The quote above gives a tip on a fun way to do that.

The more allowing I become, the more physical, mental, and emotional energy is available to me. My body energy has been changing rapidly over the last week. I am eating differently. There is so much strength, vitality and energy in my body! I love it. This morning I felt "normal," like I did when I was younger. I know that vitality is flowing everywhere in my body with this wonderful energy.

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Relaxation and Lots of Energy

I'm just following this shift with interest. Last night I felt so much relaxation inside, not feeling it in my muscles although they followed the relaxation, but deep inside. It was a fairly pure state of being.

It's working for me to check with my Inner Being when I feel I'm going off in my thinking in a way I don't enjoy. I might give my Inner Being a desire about the way I want things to be, but much more often my desire is just to want to feel good and it feels good to me to connect to my Inner Being. I took private pilot lessons and the analogy they use is that when you are flying from point A to point B you are off course most of the time. You constantly adjust your heading and end up flying in the direction you intend. Same with this I think. I adjust my heading to "feeling good" when I touch in with my Inner Being.

I was checking in during the day and by the time I was driving home from work I felt like I had so much energy wanting to express! I felt like I was in a cocoon and it was too tight and I was ready to go free. I couldn't even think of anything that would be bold enough or alive enough to express all of that energy except something like sky diving. It would be so immediate and Now oriented to sky dive.

I was thinking this evening when I get home that I don't have to consult the Law of Attraction Manager (the Manager) or consciously think about what I desire or "work on it," the Manager knows what I want and is working on it. I don't have to be concerned about it at all unless I want to for some reason.

What interesting times these are.

Gunslinger Wisdom

Renegade gunslinger Cole McCord, hired by spunky Aurora Benton to protect her while she and her crew drove her cattle to their new ranch in Texas:

He smiled at her, too, but his eyes didn't.

"If you think you can or you think you can't, either way you'll be right," he said. "It''s up to you to choose."

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A river runs through me

I was aware this morning that what is going on is that I am in the midst of some kind of shift or change. I didn't feel the anger of yesterday, which was resistance. I felt new and different. Well, that's ok. I can be comfortable with change. This time the shift seems to be going on it's own. I can feel I am changing. I don't feel the need to be in control of it. It's like being on one of those rubber rafts in a moving river, not so swift it is frightening though. Actually, now that I tune into it I have more of an impression that I am aware of an energy flow that is always there. Yes, like a river runs through me.

I trust that what is happening is what I have asked for and that it is good. I trust that it will be fun and enjoyable and loving. I don't feel like I know what it means or what is coming. Although I have had my desires and thoughts and daydreams about what I would like and they were interesting and fun to think about, there's no real life to them and this feels very much like there is life to it. I feel a lot of strength and vitality in my body which is absolutely wonderful!!! I love it.

For the moment, I seem to be an observer of this change. I like this a lot and the adventure and mystery of it pleases and interests me. I love trusting that it so safe to trust this creative energy flowing to me and through me. Or maybe it is me. I don't know and don't have to know. The Law of Attraction Manager is in charge, bringing me what I have asked for, the essence of it in some joyful way.

Actually, now that I think about it, I wonder if I'm just becoming aware of the energy flow that is always within me. I was thinking that I became aware of it because something was being created that I asked for. Perhaps it is actually the river of life that always runs through me. I wonder if this is what flow really is? If so, then I think it means constant change like a river smooths pebbles and rocks. This constant change happens because I have sent out my desires and so the energy adjusts my thinking and being so that I allow what I desire.

I like it a lot -- I don't have to do anything but allow my thinking to change and get out of the way and just enjoy each day, each moment, the eternal Now. I can spend my time having fun and thinking up new things that sound like even more fun.

Reality. What a concept!

With this new shift, I've been having the desire to begin channeling again. When I do it, I'll put the channeled information in Words of Well-Being. For now, though, have a beauty of a day. :)

Abraham-Hicks on your Inner Being

You are much more than you see in these physical bodies. And that is not always easy for you to see, as you are using only your physical senses to make the valuation. But there is another part of you -- a greater, broader, and older -- that exists, right now, in the Non-physical dimension. That is a surprise to most of you. While many of you accept that you have lived before this, that there was something before this physical experience, and while many of you want to believe -- you are hoping -- that there is something beyond this physical experience, very few acknowledge that, right now, while you are physical, that there is another part of you, a greater part of you that remains in Non-physical dimension. And we are wanting you to know that, so that you may reconnect, consciously and deliberately, with that inner you. We call it your Inner Being. Some of you call it your Higher Self or your Soul. It matters not what you call it, but it is of great value for you to acknowledge that it exists, for there is wondrous guidance that is available to you through this inner you.

Abraham-Hicks, From Abraham-Hicks Planning Calendar

It is only in your physicalness that you feel singular in your ability to be: "I can only be in one place at one time, I can only do one thing at one time." But from your broader perspective, you are multi-dimensional.

Abraham-Hicks, 1/23/93 workshop

You acknowledge that your Inner Being exists? And we say to you that your Inner Being is very old, it has lived thousands of Life experiences. Your Inner Being sits now as the culmination of all that you have lived -- very decided, very sure and very happy -- in a place that by your standards, you would say is pure ecstasy. Your role, your work is to harmonize with you, which means -- think thoughts that make you feel good -- Speak words that make you feel good.

Abraham-Hicks, 7/4/91 workshop

Take your Inner Being everywhere you go. If you take your Inner Being to the party, it's going to be a good party! If you take your Inner Being, the food that you eat will be received perfectly by the cells of your body. Every word that comes out of your mouth will be beneficial to everyone who hears them with their ears, or with their vibration. Don't go anywhere without your Inner Being. That's what "Allowing" is. Always having your Inner Being present. And then, anything else that happens is always orchestrated perfectly by Law of Attraction.

Abraham-Hicks, 2/17/01 workshop

You have an Inner Being within you, that has been walking with you all the days of this experience, who is aware of all that you want, and all that you are. We are wanting you to find a very real connection with that which you are -- with your broader Non-physical counterpart -- with your God-force -- with All That Is -- with your Higher Self -- with your Soul or Inner Being or whatever label you are wanting to assign it, so that you can be and do and have that which you've come forth to be, do and have.

Abraham-Hicks, 5/2/92 B workshop

This last week I was asking my Inner Being how to think about the things that seem right in front of my face, that I don't like. I want something new. The answer that I received was to appreciate. I was guided to go get fresh air at breaks and lunch at work which refreshed me. I asked to feel good at work and by the end of the week felt good and full of energy.

This is me. My Inner Being is who I really am. I think about that sometimes. I am this powerful being of spirit expressing in this body. Appearances otherwise are just that -- appearances.

Most of the times I feel much better when I think that. When that doesn't help me to feel better then I just keep my face pointed in the direction I want to go and keep on going. It's like soaking a pan that has burned on food on it...it may take a little soaking to loosen it up...but it comes clean.

Wishing you a beauty of a week and all the love your heart can hold. :)
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Abraham-Hicks: Being in the flow and Happy and Prosperous People

When you are really in the flow with your Inner Being, ideas come easily they are implemented easily. It's fun while you are in the process of them, and it doesn't matter how they unfold; and nothing can go wrong, and it doesn't matter if you don't get it done, it's just fun to do it. Your Inner Being feels no limit. So, anything that feels like limits is something that you have self-imposed.

Abraham-Hicks, From the workshop recording 3/15/03

This is encouraging!

You can say things like, "As I look at successful people, and by that I mean rich people, yes, and I mean happy people, and sometimes they're rich and happy. But when I'm talking about the successful ones, what I really mean is the really happy people. People that are really joyful, that want to get up every day, that are eager to get into their day. Almost without exception, they had a pretty rough beginning, which turned them into a powerful rebel initially. And then they found a way to relax into their natural birthright of Well-being.

Abraham-Hicks, workshop 2/2/02

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April Movment of Energy from Psychology of Vision

Interesting timing to get this e-zine from Psychology of Vision.

The month of April is inviting you to broaden your horizons. There are new people to meet and network with and opportunities abound. Steps taken in April will have effect for the next two-and-a-half years. It is time to break out of your mold and do things out of the ordinary. Do things in an extraordinary way. Inspiration is all around you; if it’s not, you are just afraid to be inspired favoring your comfort zone instead.

If you are feeling less than inspired, you could get back in synch with the flow. When you are in the flow, life is easy and it is unfolding smoothly. Life is fun and delightful. Doors open. The right people show up. Opportunities multiply. Life is good.

To have this occur, in spite of whatever is coming up for healing, is to simply want and commit to it. Want to be in the flow with all your heart.

Notice when you are out of the flow.
Enjoy it when you are in it.
Commit to the flow.
Want it with all your heart.

Flow is a state of natural unfolding that comes of pure unselfconsciousness. It is the result of grace. Success and being in the flow are synonymous. All the conflicts, problems, distractions and delays become secondary to being in your essence in the flow of life. Your essence is the real you -- that which lives for your purpose and destiny. The result is a best self experience with lots of possibility emerging and potential being realized. It was always there; you are just more available to it in April.

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This could prove to be a month of big emotional waves. Things you thought you had finished with but only dissociated instead, will make their way to the surface for another opportunity to heal. Be aware that exhaustion, bad luck, illness are just displacement of these emotions coming to the surface. These things are meant for healing, and it shows are out of sync in some area. One easy way to get through some very dark emotions is to be willing to get in synch. This can be done in an outward or an inward way. Sometimes, it is both. Outwardly, you find what it is you are called to be doing, instead of what you are doing. This can happen on an hour to hour basis. Inwardly, we get in synch by realigning with the God’s Will for you. Sometimes, all it takes is to commit to being in the flow. These are very simple methods to deal with might be an overflow of effluvium. Don’t let this distract you from all the wonderful, creative and life changing offers that may be coming to you, but remember, as Thoreau wrote, “Only that day dawns to which you are awake.”

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The best news of April is how the month can be filled with a carnival of colors of vibrant good feelings coming together in sweet poignancy and depth of good feeling. It is there for you if you can tune into it. This deep and tender door waiting to be opened is not far from the door marked, ‘God.’

Would you open the door to Oneness once more?

Would you allow yourself that transcendent experience that is always going on in your spirit?

It’s your month. What will you do with it? Will you resist and have trouble or align yourself with Heaven?

Chuck Spezzano
April 2006

April 2006 - Psychology of Vision Newsletter

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In the middle of a shift

Weird weekend. I've felt so angry, furious, and a confusing mix of feelings -- threatened, vulnerable -- kind of a dark, sparking kind of anger inside. I'm trying to understand it, thinking if I do, that I will know what to ask for or what to accept to find my way to better feelings.

I'm supposed to just be able to ask for what I want and get it. I've been using the placemat process and other methods and the anger is still there. I've been following my feelings looking to feel better.

I'm not sure what it is. What I have asked for this weekend is to come into alignment with allowing prosperity. So, I'm guessing these feelings are the resistance to what I've asked for. My family lost all their money when I was a year old and there were hard times, including getting evicted from a condemned house. No matter how much money I did or didn't have as an adult, the sides of the box that held money were always a fear of being cold, hungry, alone, and afraid with no one who would help me. This is all coming up because circumstances seem similar in many ways, so the feelings come up to heal as I deal with contrast and learn to feel good and allow well-being.

It would be really nice if what was going on was a fear of leaving that familiar box because that would mean that I would allow myself to come out into the air and sunlight about money and prosperity. This morning I was thinking that what might be happening is that these very old, dark feelings are coming up and now I'm strong enough and have experience enough to walk through them. I had a feeling this afternoon that I am being called to be more alive, to be more open to life in some way.

Whatever is going on, I know that I have the power to come to a better feeling place. I know that it will pass and be released. I know there's a loving answer even though I feel afraid I won't find it. I hope this is the last hurrah, the deepest, oldest little child feelings that are being released and healed.

I realized awhile ago that I feel afraid to trust God. I feel afraid I'll be tricked. That I will think everything is ok and then have something awful happen. That's old stuff I know.

So, all I can do in this case...the best thing I can do is just point myself in the direction I want to go. Even if I don't have any hope or I'm afraid to hope. Just point myself in the right direction. I don't have to know what they are or why they are happening. I can just choose and I do.

I choose to believe that I will feel better. I choose to believe there is hope even when there doesn't feel like there is any. I choose to believe I am ok and that everything is perfect even though I feel like I'm hanging on to the bottom of a pit for dear life and won't let go. I choose to believe this is very temporary, that I don't have to know anything about it to feel better. I don't have to figure anything out or heal anything or do anything at all. I just give it all to God and say, here it is, I don't know what to do with it and I want to feel better. Please take care of that for me, would you.

I've been collecting some thoughts this week so I may be blogging a lot. Or not. I don't know yet.

It's a powerful thing to experience being able to shift my thinking from something that feels really bad to feeling good. I've been doing it this week at the project I've been working on and got to really, really good feelings. That's why this weekend has seemed such a puzzle.

Oh, well. Again, I just point myself in the direction I want to go in and get myself ready for blogging and for the work week.

Later

I'm coming back to add to this post later. I'm rereading journal notes and thoughts and I felt very empowered by the time the week ended. I started working on a project a couple of weeks ago that I had also worked on last year at this time. It could be boring. I wanted to feel free. I asked my Inner Being (IB) to help me at work and was guided to go outside at breaks and lunch which helped. I was keeping in touch with my IB during the day and by the end of the week, I had good energy all day long. Saturday morning I worked myself into feeling really good, my body felt strong.

So, I'm seeing all of these dark feelings as just coming out to be cleaned out and released. Old stuff that was still hanging around. Fears that I couldn't have or keep the good feelings and trust that what I need will be here for me. I can see now that the poverty feelings are a real illusion -- shadows from the past made more frightening because I was a child and the adults were frightened. I still hear the echoes from family members and people in the area when I talk to them -- lots of fears about money and health.

Well, I have the power to choose, thank God! And I have the power to choose my path and the direction I want to go in. I want to amble down that good feeling path and see what's there. The streets are paved with gold.