Epiphany

I was standing at the sink a while ago, peeling an orange and just kind of thinking about some of the posts I've blogged the last day or two. I just moved July 1 and it's such a better situation. I feel good and nurtured and taken care of. I seem to have been drawn to information about loving myself. I was thinking about what I am discovering and posting and I had an epiphany: What if all resistance is really just not loving myself?

I posted information about a Hawaiian conflict resolution/healing practice called Ho'oponopono yesterday in the post entitled, "How does healing happen?" The article is about healing others by healing ourselves, but the practical information I took away from reading that article is that when there is the appearance of contrast that seems to come from outside of me, I can heal that inside by saying to myself, "I love you." Instead of focusing on the conflict/contrast, it becomes a reminder to me to love myself.

So, if I see someone else upset, even if not directed at me, I say "I love you" to myself (however many times feels good).

And then this morning I was thinking about lack of money and realized that it comes from not loving myself. There are thoughts and memories and beliefs about myself tied up in that feeling and vibration of lack. So, I just sat and thought, "I love you," and just felt the feelings and watched the thoughts that came up, saying "I love you" whenever I felt like it.

My epiphany this morning is, what if all contrast and resistance I experience is due to not loving myself? I'm going to give it a try. Any time I see any contrast or have an unpleasant feeling I'm going to say "I love you" to myself.

I've enjoyed the feeling of being in control of my feelings and life experience that I've gained from the Abraham-Hicks information. It's been a process of turning from seeing the world as the source (get a job --> receive money and be happy, marry Mr. Right --> be loved and be happy, look a certain way --> be happy) to realizing that Source Energy answers my desires. I get to choose what I feel by how I think and what I desire follows.

Before, when I saw things outside of me that felt overwhelming and out of my control, like the news at someone else's house, I might say a prayer, surround the person or situation with white light and/or find some way to focus on something more pleasant that felt better.

I really like this new method. I am feeling better all the time, but this gives even greater control over my feelings when I am with others or out in the world. When I say I love you to myself, I can feel the soothing of gentle regard that is focused inward. I let God take care of the rest.

I like it and it feels good.